on this day, 8 years ago

stets

New Member
Eight yrs ago, today, our son left this earth
3 months 3 days after his birth
A few days later, we laid him in the ground
A piece of me went with him, never to be found
A tremor of muscle, tears from my eyes
I covered with soil, the end of a young life.

The memory of his smile still burnt in my brain
The phone call I got, bringing my pain
My knees gave way, I stuttered when I spoke
I forgot to breathe, my heart just broke
Collapsed on the floor, the remnants of a man
To painful to move, unable to stand

The touch of a friend I never knew I had
A few kind words, he reached out his hand
The love of others, how could they be so kind
To pick me up when I was in a bind
They gathered around to show they care
To help take the pain I was unable to bear

The tangi at home, our house like a marae
Waiting for the rest of the family to arrive
Our son lay still in peace and love
Surrounded by the warmth of God above
A firm hug from the men, the women, a gentle kiss
Every single one of us, this life we will miss

As the yrs have passed, and time went by
It has gotten easier, to say good bye
But when the 11th of March comes along each year
I can’t believe he is gone, I wake up in tears
Angry with my life and hating God, why couldn’t He just let us be?
Then I think to myself, I love you, I miss you, my son, Jesse.
 

BEK

4x4 Earth Contributer
These things take a long time to heal Stets, I know from personal experience

You are doing the right thing by expressing you feelings in writing rather than bottling them up.

Who knows you could be even helping someone else

Vale Jesse
 

Grumpy

Moderator
stets I dont know u apart from this Forum and the Comments u make, but let me just tell u you touched me with your words about Jesse your Son and remember thats what he will always remain,"YOUR SON" Our thoughts are with you, Thanks.
 

frosty

4x4 Earth Contributer
I could never imagine what it would be like to lose my girls, I prey I never have too. Sorry for your loss.
 

ChallengeLee

Moderator
Such beautiful words Stets, certainly tore at my heart and made me hold precious the love l have for my man/child.
My thoughts are with you and your family.
 

Joe

Active Member
Sorry to hear mate. Having been through a similar experience, just remember that he will always be in your heart and in your memories.



Regards Joe.
 

centaur

Member
Then I think to myself, I love you, I miss you, my son, Jesse.

Stets, I am sorry to hear about your little mate, Jesse. You are in our thoughts. I have 8 kids, I cannot stand to think about losing onyone of them. it is a pain I hope I never have to endure.

Just draw strength from friends and loved ones around you, they will guide you through with peace and harmony, and be there when the burden is too great.

Best Wishes.
 

BUSHNUT

Well-Known Member
Stets, I don't know you from a bar of soap, but,,,,

Thank you for sharing your memory of that day, Stets . I cannot even to start to comprehend how I would cope with that . I have two young men that are as different as chalk and cheese, who have made their own way in life, we have been through all their trials and tribulations , their successes as well with them I am very proud of them. I could not imagine my life without them .

For you with Jesse there is none of that, but that one day of the year especially and the other times in the stillness of the night when you can't sleep, there are not the words to even to help you in that, especially uttered by a stranger .

I am not a God botherer, but I hope as they hint there might be a better place, I hope that you do as I do find some solace in the wide open spaces, some comfort with a few good mates .

I do hope that there is something out there that helps you through it, something you can draw on to find that inner strength that you need. you expressed your sorrow faultlessly in what you wrote, thank you for sharing that
 
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